i doubt.. i always have the same doubt.......... over and over again. why do i weep and weep and weep? gland tumour? why do i tremble? another episode of seizure? why does my heart ache? MI?? what is it??????? i am diseased everywhere.

because You made me.

and You touched my heart.

You love me.

and in Your presence, i weep. i tremble. i long. ...i am diseased to some, occasionally in my very own opinion..

but i will never quit,

no.