lan for guan

stop picking on mr. big size. argh ! i wish i can tell them off. why are people so size bias? when you see fat girls skipping meals and you go "oh, good for them! finally doing some justice to their body" and when you see somewhat skinny ones skipping meals you go "wei.. why are you not eating.. no appetite.. not good.. must eat" like what the peck you think fat people are immortals can live without food do not deserve to eat is it???! i am very lan for guan lor, sibeh lan for guan. i am 164 cm tall and i weigh 53 kg 116 pounds to be exact i am not overweight or anything but i still get teased by my collegues every now and then.. lol i think if i get any bigger i must go and kill myself already due to the constant pressure to not to eat. so pathetic eh? and i hate those movies and tv shows that potray how an ugly ducking with thick rimmed glasses and braces with fuzzy hair and slightly overweight turns 'beautiful' after she lost weight, replaced her glasses with contact lense, removed her braces, etc.. like what the heck is wrong with wearing glasses and braces?? maybe they can do something about the hair or dressing.. stupid movies.. stupid media. something like 300pounds beauty.. i hate the fact that i was once tempted to consider plastic surgery because of that movie.. that's my identity.. will not trade it for the sake of pleasing some vain danglers or to seduce my oh-so-leng zai boss..i have gone from fat to skinny to anorexic to medium and to the present me (which is considered fat to some people) lol.. and i realise when i lose weight i also lose a tiny portion of my gray matter.. fudge lah.. over my dead body to become 45kg again.

laugh out loud. feels good to rant once in a while. solely my opinions.

it's getting harder and harder each day to not to expect things and of others. hmmm.