and oh i forgot .. to smile.. :)

my thoughts are not choking anymore. and now i have to ...


1. get a hair-trim.. hair starting to curl @@
2. a new dress ... i have not found the ONE yet T.T ( found )
3. get some books from salvation
4. and a new guitar..

and i have missed ...

black nails..

lol..

all i need is You.

it's raining again. and i feel sorrowful, deep in feelings. maybe it's the rain.. perhaps it's the time of the month again. cause of it could be everything but nothing, no one in particular. shhh. let's close our eyes, no human being can fully understand me except You. i am flawed like that. this is a personal post i guess. it's been a while since i got this tempestuous. it's alright.. 3 hours.. maybe i will take just a little longer this time .. but it will not be expressed bodily, just in words by thoughts. don't dig, a warm smile will do. the mirror reflects, naked.. i feel naked.. i unveiled too much, feel like a portion of me is dissolved.. now shhh. silent. move on with your life. i am sturdy but i am frail too. .. .. do you understand.. that's human that's me... the rain has stopped. everything is transient. just like this piece. just like this sorrow. and just like this life.

five minutes after we die, we'll know exactly how we should have lived.

i have asked for too much. thanks for your help. and happy 21st darling keng ! <3<3

home sweet home, best feeling ever. i have never felt so relieved? it is amazing how time flies, and how fast one can grow fat. hehe.. neh, i don't feel pathetic or anything, i am just so glad that this semester is overrr with an extra 2 kgs, three and a half more years to go woohoo! everybody knows it is going to be tough but hey, let's move on and face the challenge with a better self. if you are screwed up, unscrew yourself. up and down. if you are out of shape, gogo get in shape. that is for me, i know. walk the talk woman. haha. speaking of that, remember i was talking about pretty leather bags, well i walked the talk and went on a hunt. so, the other day in midvalley i spotted a very vintage looking leather bag at topshop, the colour, the texture, the smell, the overall contour, woman i'm telling you it's perfect i love it. flipped the price tag over? RM 313. beautiful, i can only own by sight yeh. ;P then as i was strolling around, behold people, there was this tiny little bag, in awkward brown, which looks a lot like leather but it is not, almost similar to the one i saw in topshop, just much cuter and cuter! aha! and the price fuhh. cutest. rm40. and so, i bought miss cutie over miss 313. october has been a spending month, that is it. no more. the line is drawn and i shall stay within the boundaries.

alright, enough of bag story and being a girl.

i want to write this down as a reminder. this morning when i woke up, something i heard over the news made me upset. mom was telling me the news about the man who splashed acid on his wife and daughter, the wife did not make it, died and daughter's eyes went blind. it is saddening. it is very scary when people lose control. lose sanity. least i can do is pray. i have to stop being so ignorant. pray hard for the nation, for your friends and family.