nothing.

apologising in advance. sorry if i am not being like a friend to a friend for the moment. you know, this exam thingy is taking a toll on me *watery eyes, staring down at the floor*. at this point i would have cursed the word shit many times already but don't see the point of doing that.. what for.. i guess i could destress in many other ways. like taking a cold shower at 4.25 a.m. urgh. got an invitation to attend UniFest, UCSI club party.. not really interested with party stuff etc.. But. few friends are performing, got special invitation to watch them live and yumcha session with the BAND members after the gig.. T.T but. it's on thursday! like seriously.........................................as much as i wanted to go i think i will also drown gaogao in guilt . T.T T.T cannot go...........................cannot go T.T kesian budak ni. kena baca buku. buku buku buku. mati i. i can take it. and i will make the most out of it.......................................... urgh. i feel sorry and don't feel sorry for myself.

you are stupid.

period

eclipse. suddenly i grew an abhorance. fairy tales. i am disgusted.

i have little control over my mind these days.. hmm. i can't convey here.. sometimes it gets flooded with crazy weird ideas. other times it dwells on bizarre dreams. i learn from my dreams. hmm..

wooosh. ok. up up everyday is a challenge, time and tide waits for no man perrrrrr. alright time to fight! got some really cool bargain yesterday.. keke.. nice. ok here i come.

your bitterness numbered another drop. i have had my struggles when nobody could understand, and my sanity was put on stake with every step i took to learn why is why, why. then i realised something. and you were seeking. so i tried and i tried harder, because you are a believer. i am as bitter in the end, each time and i don't even get to know you.